losing and bad feeling

Well, im on my worst mood in the week. So let me be mellow..
I know you've said your excuses
i know you can't change who you are
i know you have your priorities
I know, of all people, I know.

But its SUCKS when i fell used by you. Because i know you'll never do such a terrible thing. I know you're there, but somehow i started to doubt that. Am i overreacting ? I dunno, maybe i am, maybe i'm not. This disappointment i feel it's too HUGE to ignore. And if i have to give up, then be it.
It sucks that you do nothing, you know? Sucks.


I came to you the hour I was in pain
Looking for answers, I cried to you in vain.

I shared the many skeletons hiding in my heart,
I knew then you'd be my friend,
I knew it from the start.

Troubles ran like rivers, flowing through my life,
You picked the pieces up and help me through my strife.

When home wasn't home to me no more,
You opened up your heart, and opened up the door.

We cried into night until the early morn.
We solaced each other's pain and shared our many thorns.

As time flew, the air grew thick,
I saw our friendship fading, and my heart grew sick.

The day had arrived,
When it was time to say goodbye.

Hahh.. so be it.

guess i can be happy, at last.

I'll keep this thing for myself for a while, i decide.
No guys, i'm not sharing this feeling now. I need to make sure, this is what i want, and i'm gonna make sure i'm strong enough to answer all your questions.

Because when i'm with myself thinking about what-could-be-happening-right-now, im sincerely happy.
There, i said it.

It's not gonna be easy though, but i can handle it.
Is it worth it?
Well, you answer it to me please.
Cos im in my happy place, no question needs to be answered.

Happy, see?

Oh,shoot. We're growing up.

Looking right and left
Picking to my past and continue building my future
Gosh, am i missing something?
Where all the fun go?
It's all about responsibility now
Tiring.

Suddenly it feels like i'm 16 again
But then, what's the big difference?

Ahh the confusion! I guess it's not here when i'm 16.
All and aall it come to this last sentence

Shoot, i'm growing up.