Worth to think about..

"It is very sad to me that some people are so intent on leaving their mark on the world that they don’t care if that mark is a scar."

— John Green (via elige)

A cup of freedom, please

21 going to be 22 in a couple of months.

I happen to know what i want, what i love to do, whom i love to spend my time with.
But i guess sometimes life's trick me with giving the right argument.

"I shouldn't do this.. You can't do that.. It's not supposed to be happening.. It's not the right path.. etc."

So when the crossroads lie in front of my eyes, i tend to choose the "supposed-to-be-pick" road.
And i'm making myself happy with that choice.

This time, i wonder.
If i pick what i want, not what i suppose to, can i be happier?
If i dare my brain to rest and let my heart rule my actions, can i be more free?
If i let my eyes do the talking, instead my mouths, can i be more honest?
If i just do things without thinking twice, is it gonna be surprising?


I wonder and wonder..
I wanna be bolder, i wanna own my freedom.


So people, can i have a cup of freedom, please? With judgement on the side.

Not a Cheering Squad

I decided to blog again. Simply because i need to whine, and blab about this thing.

What thing, you may wonder.

Well, this thing i keep telling myself, that i have a limit.

In this case, not because i'm too busy or too tired, come on, i'm not.

In this case is because i need to give me a break. That not everything's okay. The way you treated me it's not okay, it's not supposed to, it can't be something that i can face everyday and do nothing at the end.

In this case is to make some bold movements outside my comfort zone. To disappointed other people, to not always being there when they in need, to not always feel obligated to do something i don't really wanna do.

But i only have the guts to blog about this, and not talk about it out loud.

At least, this is a first step?

Harsh.

She Could Be You

Shawn Hlookoff
She Could Be You lyric

I'm haunted by this photograph

Don't know why
Everytime I look, I get shivers down my spine
You're such a beautiful face
I know those eyes
They take me back in time

She could be you
I wouldn't even know
She could be you
But that was long ago
She could be you

I wish that i could tell you
What you don't know
I dream about that day
But it's impossible
In another world,
I'll be yours tonight
But i can't break free from this life

She could be you
I wouldn't even know
She could be you
But that was long ago
She could be you

I see it all the time
I know it's true
A picture doesn't lie

She could be you
I wouldn't even know
She could be you
But that was long ago
She could be you

She could be you
She could be you

Love Kyle XY.

Cheerio

safety net and crossroads

Since our mother pregnant, she keeps us in her womb. All warm and save.
Certain of our safety, well taken care of, loved.
Then we born. All new things and people surround us.
We have to found a way to protect ourself, so when things fall apart, we stay strong.

I call that creating our safety net. A way to alarm ourself when things got back, to step back and stay safe.
Inside that net, its safe, distant from anything that will shake up our beleieve, our state of mind, and our heart.

Finding the safety net is not easy, I have to gone through so many thing to find one.
I have one. I know exactly how to feel save whenever I want.
To me, its about a broken heart.
Well as cheesy as it sound, it is.

So when I see this place, this way to secure my feelings, I take it.
This place cure me. Really did. I just forgot that everything has its price.
My price is that I become so secure and save so I hate to put any jeopardy to lose it.

Suddenly, I was shaken by the fact that I lose so many thing as a price to be inside this net.
I have to get my life started. By take a step out of this place.
Its hard.
Its my crossroads.
I choose to walk awaY.
I need to lose my net.
Reborn?
Not yet.

But this is about me.
I can handle this, as always.
Go me!!


Cheerio.